Dee Pleat Ed.

Been up for a minute
Since about 5am
Made a pot of coffee
Music therapy, application

Soon the house will arise
Wake to distract
Head full and heavy
It’s all about the react

My baby is here
Weekend part-time dad
When I return her
It’s always sad

I usually cry
Sometimes it takes time
Like when putting toys away
Missing out making dimes

Ten times ten
One hundred percent
Slave to dollars
Making ends paying rent

My children love me
But I’m not satisfied
If I said I do enough
Believe me I lied

Never ending stories
Of struggling for real
This shit piles heavy
Layers, lack appeal

Give me a sign
Message from above
Show me the path
Lacking self-love

Hard on myself
Heavy loaded Atlas
Shouldering burdens
Hard knock life class

Fizzle out quickly
Energy never lasting
Get lost every time
Time wasted past me

He or me?
Falling into habits of old
Borrowed and broken. Soiled and cold.
Wanting but wavering. Inconsistently bold.

He(e/a)r me:
Tale between legs lack I that eye of tiger shine.
Head in hand, down. Cowardly Lion in a handout line.
Cheesy-Wiz. Cheddar-less. Deaf, eating. Whiny and dying.

Lately

She probably doesn’t know
That in between texts I often stare at my phone
Just waiting for her to drop me some line

It’s usually not anything profound
Small talk, answering a question, an emoji
But it keeps me warm as I fall asleep alone

I try not to imagine her
As she sleeps next to other people
Swears they don’t fuck, I try to believe her

I fall in love too easily
Become obsessive and codependent
I’m clingy and insecure

I started writing this
Thinking I’d send it to her
Impressing her, making her want me

Today is her birthday
She turned 25
And she’s fine without me

We fuck like rabbits
Every chance we get
And now I’m addicted

Doc

She makes me want
To both be myself
And who I am

Inspiration
Like reminds
Of what makes me tick

Makes me want
To pull out
All my trix

Sorta like falling
Down the rabbit holes
Important dates
Kindred souls

My name is found
Inside of hers
Share we love of
Written words

She says I make her
Want to write
I find that sameness
Taking a bite

Want to name her
Say things aloud
Sing when I’m with her
Three’s a crowd

Waking up
The stuff inside
Tell her everything
Blindly confide

Her walls are high
And thick like a castle
Lay siege wanting in
More pleasure than hassle

The way she smiles
When I turn up the charm
Makes me want her always
On my right, on my arm

I forgot what this felt like
To discover each other
Everything feels up
Under the covers

In constant contact
True, like connected
She’s all in my veins
I must be infected

Perhaps when she kisses me
And holds my gaze with that smile
It’s seeping into my blood somehow
Makes my heartbeat all wild