Jesus, shark, or aardvark

Fucked up waiting for my life to be ok and im sitting on my self right now and need to find a way of not completely breaking down im lost inside these keys and the letters how they oprerate surgical with these i fit if it pleases eyes to read upon the things i have to write here then maybe i can feel at least ive got something to run to that will keep me floating when the sinky feelings that i feel suface at me ugly happenings need to learn to deal with the problems facing me just wasting way not wanting to be so damn lost when im finding no thing like im blind in the dark and im searching for who

Again with the cats

The litter box is now in the last room left for my kids what once was a dream of finding a nitch has now been irritatingly replaced by a soreness thats cronic and depression to boot if it dont go my way this ends in kapoot like saving ryan isnt private its on display to yall cause im destined to be audiaunced and studder most of all im stirred up smoking cig cig after cig cause i feel outside myself im tired victim of the elements i dont know where the hell it went so wrong its almost right so i wake most night fighting the fight my soul wants most of all to crawl out of this cave of waiting worshiping the almighty dime

More like bore-ality

Half a mind to get at the game im thinkin i could handle
Ripping out poetic lines and stealing minds
i vandal
Eyes they close to hear these flows
That shit is sick like cancer
Bob yo head if you aint dead
Got a calling so ill answer
Ring ring
hello can i speak to whom
May i ask whats this regarding
A matter near and dear to me
Christ- like, can i beg your pardon?
These rappers talk at length about that money drugs and women
Bout getting money selling souls and liquor pools to swim in
I guess its all expressing it ism isnt it all a matter of perpective wise so dont trivialize the importance of the latter this condition we all humans find ourselves in is a trip
To err is us from dust to dust so it pays not to lid flip
Shit comes and goes
like ebbs and flows
It makes me sea im sick
Infected with a sense of time
Mortality suck my _______

In there

Wish i were a rapper or some such cause im feeling like ive got something that nobody can touch with enough practice i see me slayin some demons if all my split personalities can come to agreements right now im fighting the struggle so real im a poet thats lost and im trying to deal with a life that im avoiding so hard to heal all the wounds they are leaking and bleeding me dry if this doesnt pass quickly i fear i may die at the hands of person who though i resemble is not what im made of when disassembled

Fuck ur cat

I hate your cat because you love him

He is cute yes but id like to throw him into the oven
That cock blocking asshole pisses on the couch
And turns me into oscar the grouch
My cat is annoying and yours is purrfect
I wish i were like his ass void of defects
I clean up his shit from the box he dont use
Cant bring it up cause i give up i argue i lose
You think i wish you would send him away
When in fact id rather have him stuffed to display
For he hates me i know it his eyes tell me so
But you loved him before me so it I who must go
So obviously you rather hold that bastard over me
Ill come back when my breath stinks of ass and im furry
Maybe then ill have your attention for tonight im here in cat hater detention
I mentioned to her that her cat urinates
And now im about to have to masterbate
She wonders what makes me jealous of a cat
The answer is clearly not as simple as that
He kills all my mojo when im trying to fuck
Coming up on the bed when im horny it sucks
I dont exist when his bitch ass comes around
And id feed him to hungry dogs if we lived by the pound

Get it out

Been a minute since last i posted some shit to get relief so here i go with poetic showing what it is that makes complete me for my personality has this part that i would call my calling it involves these words put down on page the walls they are all falling all around me forces drive me far from where id be if money was a thing no more and everything were free for im not some worker buzzing round like bumbling mindlessly im a breed thats rare if i dare embrace what was given me

Txt flo

Im a freakin lump with no freakin drive and im just stuck in this pit zombie barely alive parylized and if lies i any longer in this place im gunna melt into a puddle of worthless waste wax off a candle hardened cause you is my flame and im wild inside with love you have me tamed cause i cant leave to go nowhere never without you and its odd cause im usually out doin what i do and im stuck kinda living for moments with you cause im kinda just waiting not knowing what to where i want to be is the future by your side fast forward to i missed you and pause before goodbye

Long A.F.

The codex to my venacular i gravitate to your power-
full of spirit
Holy
untamed
the ledgendary stuff the poets doth named
get antiquitic when i prostrate
spit with firey tounges
until with vaccumed out lungs
im crumbled and dumb
from the songs that ive sung
to you
praising the true God for what He has done
made me happy to be here and share this
inspired by you
id love to dismiss it
as no major deal
however i must to sound reason appeal
for the way i get moved on and lit up like lights
is no minor happenstance
its what i live for
its right
not just comfy or pleasant
not ok or fine
its the real kind of feeling
that feels like a sign
and all of the signals
i get in the world
tell me im made to fit with
this Halee Grif girl

I get all excited
to do what i cant force
its unfake-able
to make up bull
shit and divorce
genuine sentiment
from a device built for truth
for the craft of a writer
is being the slueth
finding little bits of wisdom tween the lines
plays with words
such fun when it rhymes

I wonder, especially when im like now in mid write rant if what the fuck im saying here make any lick of sense and i guess it doesnt matter much to anyone but me but im putting your name on things and that should not be taken lightly.
Im slightly embarrassed that i make spelling mistakes and that my spacing is goofy
and there are hard
hesitates
and im sure at times awkward
it is to read all my ravings
how cant i get down though it
what other is the way be

Ive gotta get it out of me while the creative juices are flowing
so accept from me with apologies for how up your phone b blowin
for i know not else this man is to do cept his God given ability to love and love You
if ever i lose my mind or i die i want to to remember that the complete entierty of my focus at this very moment is the fuel your soul gives to a frozen block of poet.
Its important to me that i practice my craft
and to outsider eyes it may see daft this draft
but laugh as haters may
im addicted to this
and i cant help i love you and i give you my gift
Miss Griffin if you havent grown bored of this endless utter nonsense you get then im more than sure,
better yet,
at peace in the world
for we are where we belong
so my obsession with you is anti-wrong
(Right?)

Halee Grif

On the reel tho
You are my cinematic end
ing bending my will towards better ends
Transcends
Best we
Friends
Heaven sends
Angelix whens
We teegethy
Wrens flying sky bound above cloudy skys and pretends we like this sometimes cries come and frustration ensues lo no matter the weather im right behind you we are what is said of words in books and in the future i wont be one bit suprised when one gets published about us and the little shit i send and you get when im struck how enflamed i am in love with you Halee Grif