Don't give a fuck

 So yeah I'm waiting to go into work and I've been wasting away counting down when I will contribute to society because I'm beginning to doubt that I'll ever come around when the pounding of my heart is the only sound found within an entire day and in an entire town where although my kids stay i betray by being away for more than months when it used to just be days and I'm behaving as if I'm incapable and in practice I'd have to concede that I'm living like I don't and feeling as though I just ___ ____ _ ____ anymorr