Belt height-ed

 Sorta kinda just going through the motions as of late like I'm caught in a constant hesitate can't seem to muster the motivation to live like I'm alive out of tune static signal radio station the dial or antenna or string or whatever is damaged from sun beatings and storms and whether or not I like it or not I'm stuck constantly remembering the things I forgot to protect and are now lost and gone to the point that I don't even listen to songs cause I don't think I deserve anything more than this stagnation so I stay in my head like imagination all the while here in this hybrid hibernation the world turns around me without hesitation and it's not like I want it to stop for me still I just wish that I had the power of will to catch up to it and continue the race but I sit and I think and I'm wasted a waste

BMby3

 I just today realized that I will always still be in love with you Halee and Stephanie and Julia two all my babies and they mammas

It isn't often I can find the strength to forgive

Myself