dasher

as these seasons change and the flowers all curl up into themselves and die and the brisk wind comes in from the north and the people who forgot their jackets this morning curl up inside of themselves and want to die because they cant do anything right and the poor lost and lonely souls who are no better off today than when the summer began and they were sure that they would be the ones who got it right. shitty. stuck here in this God forsaken mess of fucked up fuck ups. here we go, going through the same damn thing. fuck it all blast it all into the stratosphere for all i care for i have been being and been aware and no matter how hard we try we are always the same the cycle is stuck on repeat and i am growing nowhere

THE DEVIL IS ON MY SHOULDER

and birds in my ears
can't seem to get
ahold of this missed
this burn me
this stake
where is it at
ironic
icon
icky
tricky
dickery
doctor doctor
give me the muse
i gotta bad case
no cure
the blues

At hacker

release me from this
semi self induced
this no shoulder to cry
this excuse my excuse

is this a dream
nightmarish scenes
that i regret
constantly i fret

over nother nothing
over again siren
sing me to death
came gone left

right my wrongs
ding like dong
king of kongs
deafening gongs

ringing in my ears
what a scene
sees not what peers
right back

atcha

4gotIN

taller now
beans talk
speaking of what they dare
never should have listened
pride left by the door
shot in the foot
again
and again
and again
never again
take what you want from me
you deserve it all
faded
glory glory
hell if i know
fucked up
again
silly silly siren sounds
should have know
should have waxed my ears
stead i stayed up
waning moons
now though try I'm all dry
crying monsoons
swept away
out to sea
fuck this dream
cant escape my own
fallacious
what else is a boy to do?

Nero

ive been down a road riddled with doubters. like potholes they fake promises promises, why do we believe????? hark! eventually we are gladdened we were jarred and scar-ed so kicked around by destiny.... for making us exactly who we always were supposed to be. the one whos image we come from is the opposite of dumb, though some are deaf and blind too concerned with fast forward they need to rewind. to be was always vigil, it is in avoiding those potholes, learning, being taught what are the obstacles and what is not. we learn to come out of the fox holes and remember that we've got unearthly souls. the endless traffic that is  humanity, imperfect ed, lo never neglected, must unite 'gainst the foes black with death, uncountable crows that nest in our souls if we allow sin it boils us straight to hell forever there doomed to dwell... battle we seldom nuff for kept we're distracted, kept un-collective, shadowed by lies from the facts kids. Daddy our Abba may now be away, but alls not a playground and the time for sassy play will indeed have its day ....

Siht kc uF

not really
not
real
y
it is strangling this struggle and no matter it seems if i triple norph i double my efforts
the best worst is all i can get for lo
for woe
is me the issue
ive reinvented myself many times over
and no matter how far i bend backwards over
there seems to be no fourth leaf to my clover
fields of dreams are more pipe fitting than
reality seams
to deem fitting to fit me with fights
and i get the sharp point
and i been anointed
with oil with smoke
still poked, jester joked
through fire in hell
like as if the bitch mother earth is spelled WITCH
im bound
to be Christ
disliked and nailed
this cross is my destiny
my lips
on my boss'
his ass her ass
the asses
the masses
why for am i slow to find it
destiny like a snail in molasses
i want it now like that snotty chick from willy wonka
my dreams i cant catch them in outfield
im going extinct like Kevin Costner's tatonka

Yours

Strong enough?
Its all for you
In signs
unword
unworldly
affections
you bring me
to Christ
you drive me
to get closer
as close
as ill ever come
to earthly perfection
before you
i knew not
what a real man was
no body showed me
somehow you grow ed me
made me one
you are my only
how can i ever thank you
for this revolutionary
this life saving
this ever attaining
this no longer complaining
this always with you
ever remaining
this driving
to sanity
what was bound
to the flames me
i was blind to He
in you found i
sane-ing
this light you have shown me
from every bone the
best self for you im honing
rock steady
i phone thee
for you are my home
we
forever will roam
we
never more we alone
we
let it be known
we
forever
you own me

Fore Al Waze

What good for art words to me
if they fail ever so miserably
to truly convey to thee
these feelings inside
of me
thousands of volumes
could I master
fully craft
yet insufficient 'twould be,
laughably
feel i daft.
never a morrow
nay never at all
will have I skill enough thorough
to relay sufficient
this ball,
this body
so massive
a world in itself
rotating ever round my soul
from heaven
fellith
as i stumble
round language in circles
naked like un suitable
is there a thing to explain it
it burns at my every
like an eternal flame lit
it brightens me
shinning
like a knights armor neath stars
so bright oh so bright
if on Jupiter moons
ye could see it from Mars
that which speaked of
uneasily
is the unkillable
undying
love I have o' thee
God blessed me sneezing like
with an angel such (achoo)
as you
seraphim in a woman's costume
i will ever follow
i will ever loom
i cannot seem to show you
i dare say ye shall 'ever know
precisely the gravity amassed have you
you pull me
volcanically i overflow
upon this page
to fractionally relate
how ecstatic like electricity
to be able to meant this state
mysteriously found
i am so inclined
aint no mountain high enough
to keep me from you
true
soul-mate
what an honor
madame twill be
when united become we
in holy matrimony
desire of you nothing save to accrue
your kisses
affections
and memories new
as long as i have you
i will remain complete
never the ground
to again touch my feet
for you lift me higher
than i thought i could go
(and ive dreamed of being astronaughy
as well you know, ive told you so)
Oh Stephanie my darling dear
how i truly love you so
composed i this ballad for you
in hopes from it a smile will grow
upon that face
like the sun it shines
and inspires these
YOUR endless lines

Salution

the future glimpsed i
chanced i sceent it
bout fell outta sleep
in an excitement fit
for twas so bright
nearly had to wear shades
for never to end
are our glorious days
eternally we be got
ten times forever
sided like a car
leave yee will i never
enduring like the grandest
of canyons is our love
deeper than the deepest
measured is our love
tried to by galaxies
even then fell i short
from heaven is our calling
like a vessle is to port
courtly you my queen
me a mere blessed jester
but as far does set the sun like
our love would still be wester
in a perfect world of besties
you by far be bester
within me doth you agitate
in my wounds you fester
if i were a tree
and you were birdly
you'd be nestled in my braches dwelling
the heart of me would ever be swelling
tickled within so damn deeply
down to my roots id sappily seep thee
so much love it often escapes me
sweeter than syrup on pancakes be
unmovably id watch you sleep
never daring to wake you
not making a peep
and grow around you i wood as i do
id uproot myself if away ever you flew
id sprout tree wings
and shout from a tree mouth
"baby oh baby where art thou
why hath you flown south"
in chaos would be
what was dove peacely
seach i'd the world
with steadfast resolve
for the source
that life force
that makes me evolve
thats factual futurely
now and beyond
binded together
an unbreakable bond
for i am a planet
around you i revolve
never there a problem
you are my solve