Thursday, April 23, 2020

Custom Kitchen Delivery

Finally a string of days with which to move forward from. Successive days that ended with hope; some semblance of optimism...

“...gosh it was/is so utterly unusual.”

He, she, they, we, would/do later/here recant to whoever/whomever was/is listening, or is pretending/will pretend to be, listening that is. And they will never know what it really is/was, only what it feels/felt like. And so it went. And so it goes. Where it stops one could/can only suppose. Time’s a little bitch like that.

Of those who did, most hardly any recognized it at all. The curve with it’s flattening. The happy in the happenings. And most wouldn’t accept it, not at first, certainly not without a litany of checks and rechecks to verify the validity of the trend. Suspicious of a trap.

Fear makes it like that, constant fortifications to do anything other than feel that feeling again, that panic, that fight or flight, the heart of the attack. Seriously. And so...

All were tragically, truly afraid. Terrified to get their hopes up. They were collectively post-traumatic.

But it was real. Time would tell.
Still nobody dared speak of it out-loud, (superstition you see.) And one could almost confuse it as progress.

Wednesday, April 15, 2020

20/20

Holy cow.
Oh boy.
Zero balance.
Overdrawn.
Ameri-con.
Cartoony.
Caricatures of civilization.
Characters.
Characterizations.

Waitresses and waiters:
”Can we get the...”
Gotta gut-
check.
Stimulation.
Lack is now
an occupation.

This tightrope
on which we
totter upon
is nothing.
Knot anymore.
We tied one on.

A noose on a lasso
lynch-like.
ITS A TRAP!
Circus act.
Rodeo clown.
Can’t get
back up.
Staying in,
staying down.

Post ‘19 life.
Co-vivid
nightmarity.
Blue and red,
white
and not
alike all
scaredy,
like a kitty.

Squeaky blind mice,
sea to
the shining.
See how we run.
Into ourselves.
Empty like shelfs.

Back to our holes.
Running out
only
to gather food,
but never
to mass-gather.
No show.
No pro-
test.

Interest-ingly
anticlimactic
how we
acclimated easily.
It’s all too sketchy.
Banking on statements
blank as our stares;
as we blink
in disbelief
at these screens
in antiquated,
mass-manipulated,
perplexed anticipation.






Monday, April 13, 2020

B4ore

Way too much of myself
Stuck in here with nowhere
To be saturated in this
Has gotten me so utterfully hopeless
That I’ve just GOT to share it

All the things that should be bringing
Me joy are just fucking boringly
Chizzling away
No more aura in these
Caves of self reflection

Neglecting brings empty me
Stuck inside the memories
Of the used to
And could have
And should have beens

Eye so iso lated
Sick self infatuation
Auto predict
Thinks for me differently
Than the me that makes me elated

Save me grace
Make me remember
The miracle that still exists

The better times
Feel left behind me
Find that I’m always

Waiting.

Thursday, March 19, 2020

Corona, my

good a time as any
to compose up on this historic

hysterically laughing
but when i got there
the banks were closed

into woods
backwards
we trot in rows

over the pond
through the rivers
around the flattened earth

went to walmart
felt like purge
worse comes from worst









Monday, January 6, 2020

antsy

its about time
most if not all things are
is
write now
its in here waiting
and the world is in turmoil
fire and bombs
singing songs

follow...

Along

stars align
powers that
be

shit seems too
BB2(tubey)

escalating.
no debating
now we
weighting
sea too
shining

see
man

it's getting
ugly.

sat
@war.

bubba gump
jump
shrimp ship
@sea
see me?

God!?!
Lt. Dan
disband
WWIII

Run.
Run.
Forest.
Run...

Eve act
You ate?
Apple i8
Haters

you?
know?
now?
we?
won?

Nay,
shun

un-der
duh

Sunni
muzzle
less
un

umm.....


Sunday, December 22, 2019

Est-Rang-ed.

im not really interested
in talking
about it
i feel
like that book
with grover
like there is a monster at the end of this
and i don't feel
like crying
right
now

ive been
compartmentalizing
well enough
to get through
days
long
and dark

im just letting
infant jesus
take the
reigns
to this sled
grandma
is running over
rain
dear
games

over the river and through the woods
as i am
dragged behind
like a southern hate crime victim
slamming my head
sonny bono style
on every fucking trunk

observe
as i go vietnam Buddhist
calmly accepting
the burning
the savagery
the pain

happy 2nd birthday Stella.
Star in my sky.
i wish upon you.
even though i can't see you...

for whatever-

backwards ass,
selfish,
self serving,
heart wrenching,
soul squashing,
easy way out,
avoiding confrontation,
exaggerated,
slanderous,
certified insane,
BULLSHIT,
(not to mention
anti christ)
no mass

pour favor

ive
got nothing
but sorrow
and im exhausted

God help me
I miss my baby

-reason they tell themselves.
Fuck you. and God bless you
Mothers,
you fuckers

Saturday, December 7, 2019

axed



you owe me
a tree
and some 
memories 
un-man-i
-fested

advent
-u-r-
e
neglected

intro
-vert
el-
e
-lect-
ed 
in 
-stead in-
vert
-a-
b-rate 
pain
in my

correct it





you



Thursday, December 5, 2019

dont pass go

questioning my reasoning
being where i is
music in me
background
i am
under
amused

shouldn't i
be moved
more
hell
if i
dont
or do
ya know?

spending
money
time
and
space

but this
guy has
a sense
of humor
"romantic"
great prompt

room full
out on
the broadway
mono
poly
fingers
pockets