just fucking kill me

you can call me you know i welcome its not a home without you two here i bask in the sound of silence wishing on a stella her mommy was behind this door or that one but a monster scared her away now im stuck here living with shadows and dismay for my worst fear came true as i self sabatoged as if it meant nothing to let go words and waste moments ill maybe never get to make back times i was the worst enemy to my self i could be hardly myself not at all really not me something wrong up inside mental help needing eye sees no color it left me today alls grey shades of blues having nobody to hear me or share with my mood masks like horror im ghost im so booed you can to my grave bring me floral the arrangement so strange went fast gone like this summer when away i was often so many days lost the number and it was bad when i was crying when i would leave for the week but now its as if i cant eat think or sleep cause the better part of me left my side leaving a hole in my soul as deep as its wide im still bound to you and in love with you darling and when you say you love me too our reunion isnt some far thing. you can ring up my line its not wrong if its right im so sad you are missing im missing you too all alone here tonight