Jesus, shark, or aardvark

Fucked up waiting for my life to be ok and im sitting on my self right now and need to find a way of not completely breaking down im lost inside these keys and the letters how they oprerate surgical with these i fit if it pleases eyes to read upon the things i have to write here then maybe i can feel at least ive got something to run to that will keep me floating when the sinky feelings that i feel suface at me ugly happenings need to learn to deal with the problems facing me just wasting way not wanting to be so damn lost when im finding no thing like im blind in the dark and im searching for who